Then all the congregation raised a loud cry, and the people wept that night. And all the people of Israel grumbled against Moses and Aaron. The whole congregation said to them, “Would that we had died in the land of Egypt! Or would that we had died in this wilderness! Why is the Lord bringing us into this land, to fall by the sword? Our wives and our little ones will become a prey. Would it not be better for us to go back to Egypt?” – Numbers 14:1-3

It has been a crazy, busy few weeks here. I am worn down, both in my mind and my heart.

As I was reading this passage today, I realized that I have fallen into the same way of thinking as the Israelites when the spies came back from checking out the land that God had promised to give them. They were afraid. They knew their resources were not enough to overcome the formidable people that lived in the land. They were doubting God’s ability to protect them, or at least His desire to do so.

So, today I take Joshua and Caleb’s words to heart:

“The land, which we passed through to spy it out, is an exceedingly good land. If the Lord delights in us, he will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land that flows with milk and honey. Only do not rebel against the Lord. And do not fear the people of the land, for they are bread for us. Their protection is removed from them, and the Lord is with us; do not fear them.” – Numbers 14:7b-8

My hope is not in the giants being weak, it is in the fact that “the Lord is with us.” I need to be reminded that to fear the enemy is to rebel against God, a turning from trust in Him (who brought me out of the land of Egypt) and to trusting myself (who followed the course of the world, Satan, and my own fleshly desires – all of which confirmed the fact that I was dead in my trespasses and sins – Ephesians 2:1-3).

I, like the Israelites in this passage, need a mediator. Someone to step in between a holy God and me, someone to whom He will listen, not just for one lifetime, but for eternity. Moses could not do this. He himself would fall pray to his own pride and be banned from the land. But there is a mediator to whom even Moses pointed, one who lives forever because He is Life.

Today, I look to Him. And if I am “in Him,” then I can say with Joshua and Caleb, “the Lord is with us.”